「 就像我从来不知道我想从旅行当中得到什么一样

出发去寻找所谓的答案的时候

其实连问题都不存在

- July Love 」

I have always been reading people's blog and recently I got attracted a 24 years old beautiful girl who has now become a mommy of a little baby boy. She is one of a backpacker who like to travel around with her husband. It is very blessed to have a companion who can travel around with you and not to mention the sharings and experiences that they walked through hand in hand.

There is one article written by her which I would like to share with all : <阿格拉，穿莎麗遊泰姬瑪哈陵歷險記 @ 寫作的旅行> What is travelling about? She really done a good work in interpret her opinion of travelling.

When I told my mom and other elder uncles or aunties about my plan to Newzealand, most of them would think that I am too stupid to resign on my current job which I would defenitely gain a good prospects and nevertheless they will add-on with: "YOU WILL REGRET ONE DAY IN THE FUTURE". I told them I really hope to explore more when I am young and this is a once in a life time chance that I only will regret if I didn't seize it. They try to influence my decision by stating that I can done it on my retire stage and what that got into my mind is the endless cycle of an usual people like me and my family:-

Study -> Working -> Marry -> Having Baby -> Save Money for Children
-> Looking on their Children repeat on their cycle 

Can I ask them, where is the travelling section? After their children graduate in University? Probably 50-60 of your age and till then do you think you still getting passionate of travelling around? Being that case, what for I don't go for it now? I am just trying to postpone my pre-assume life cycle and work out my plan while I am not bearing any burden.

I am just a simple little girl that want to know more about this big big world.

Flight settled!

"When GOD closes one door,

He opens another"

I never doubt how GOD make his plan on me, cause I know that he prepares the best for me. Air Asia X suspended their flight to Christchurch from 31 May 2012 onwards, It is such a bad news for us (backpackers) as Air Asia X is always our choice for cheaper flight tickets which the lowest can come to RM344 before tax. Can you imagine how much we can save from it? Luckily, we still left a choice of low cost carrier - "Jetstar".

Itinerary of our flight

From time to time, I have been surfing Jetstar website so that I can aware of their on going promotions and I got a very GOOD news yesterday morning from my cousin LINA (my buddy who will be going with me) that Jetstar is having promotion for flight from Kuala Lumpur(KUL) -> Auckland, Newzealand(AUK)!! After some discussions, we decide to buy the flight with shortest transit time at Singapore and share the luggage of 25kg which cost only RM 1.631.80 for both of us!

HERE WE GO a big step nearer to our dream! 

Struggle

The first question of my friends would ask me after they notice I will be going for
working holiday @ Newzealand this coming November is : How about your boyfriend?

Yea, I am a girl with a boyfriend,
yet I am so selfish that I dump my boyfriend alone in KL and I go enjoy myself in Newzealand.
I think it should be the impression of them when they are asking me this question.

Actually I don't feel anything wrong at first as he is a guy that can take care of himself very well,
his life can be more easy without taking care of me and our relationship is like so stable
making me have the illusion that even if I am going to NZ for the whole year
he still have the ability to enjoy his life without me.

Not until the day I came back from Krabi and we talked about the issue.
He without any intention just beg me whether I can cancel my plan.
At that very moment, I am mad of him, he knows me well and when everything is settled
now he only ask me to stay? But why, why he didn't ask me earlier?
I told him I paid for the visa and I don't want to waste the money.

Obviously it is just an EXCUSE of a heartless girl.

Many times I told people, in a relationship we should be responsible for each other,
think for each other, but when it comes to me, I just want to keep the whole interest to myself.
I enjoy being his girlfriend, enjoy his pamper, enjoy his companion,
but I chose to leave him chasing my little dream now.

But it's too late for me to change my mind, I have wonder for this trip for so long and
 I don't want anything to be regret in my life.
I like to explore more, this could be the great chance that I certainly don't wanna miss up.
I am sorry to him.

Forgive my stubborn, forgive my naive.