The first question of my friends would ask me after they notice I will be going for
working holiday @ Newzealand this coming November is : How about your boyfriend?

Yea, I am a girl with a boyfriend,
yet I am so selfish that I dump my boyfriend alone in KL and I go enjoy myself in Newzealand.
I think it should be the impression of them when they are asking me this question.

Actually I don't feel anything wrong at first as he is a guy that can take care of himself very well,
his life can be more easy without taking care of me and our relationship is like so stable
making me have the illusion that even if I am going to NZ for the whole year
he still have the ability to enjoy his life without me.

Not until the day I came back from Krabi and we talked about the issue.
He without any intention just beg me whether I can cancel my plan.
At that very moment, I am mad of him, he knows me well and when everything is settled
now he only ask me to stay? But why, why he didn't ask me earlier?
I told him I paid for the visa and I don't want to waste the money.

Obviously it is just an EXCUSE of a heartless girl.

Many times I told people, in a relationship we should be responsible for each other,
think for each other, but when it comes to me, I just want to keep the whole interest to myself.
I enjoy being his girlfriend, enjoy his pamper, enjoy his companion,
but I chose to leave him chasing my little dream now.

But it's too late for me to change my mind, I have wonder for this trip for so long and
 I don't want anything to be regret in my life.
I like to explore more, this could be the great chance that I certainly don't wanna miss up.
I am sorry to him.

Forgive my stubborn, forgive my naive.

Process of applying

After apply online for the working holiday visa

Almost twice a day I log in into the NewZealand immigration web
to check for my application status

Day by day

People around start to congratulate each other but my status still pending

There are statements explaining why I apply 5am in the morning but still pending : 

1) I fill up my departure date on Nov'2012
(The authority incharge choose the earlier departure date to approve first)

2) All the application form received are piled up & we are at the very bottom

I am so anxious

Worry that when I finally decide to step out but I am not approved

Then all thing will be back to the beginning

After a very LONG week waiting

Lastly I saw a big "APPROVED"

Electronic Notification : APPROVED

My Working Visa

Wao! I feel like jumping and cheering on my bed

o! Sorry, I was there working in my office

My expression cannot be too obvious and exaggerate

as I am not planning to let me colleagues to know first :P

All the excitements and hurrays!!!
I am IN!
Again!!!
NewZealand, I AM COMING!!!

Lastly!

I've made up my mind

to have my dream come true

(**Working Holiday in New Zealand**)

seems so unreachable for me before

After all the encouragements from Lina

I know I should give myself a big step out

to look at the world

to explore more

And so.....

Wake up 5am in the morning of 4th Jan 2012

I apply for the visa

I know there are many things that  I need to give up

many things that I need to sacrifice

maybe my "almost" 4 years relationship

will end up with all the <Long distance> problems

Will be all over again for my career in accounting

But

There is one thing that I am certain

is that

IF I am not going

I will be regretting so so much

NEWZEALAND!

I AM COMING!