Arh!!! Lastly, I managed to hand out my resignation letter to my manager, her face looked so shocked! Yaya, within my expectation as no idiot like me, will really do so at this time being (months before the bonus payout??!!) . Yet, I really put down a stone in my heart and I can start to prepare for my working holiday.

和同事谈起自己的计划，
她突然来一句：“你真的是我所有认识的人里面最不同的，你真真切切的去实现自己的梦想。”
哇！真不敢当，我没有什么比别人更特别的地方，
只是心里那爱跑爱窜的心思在作祟，我也傻乎乎的应合着它。

“你不怕后悔吗？可能等你回来的时候，一切又要重新来过。”
我怕，可是我更怕没有去实现梦想的遗憾。决定去的那一刻，
已经把所有该付出的代价都一一盘算，都还是抵不过那蠢蠢欲动的心。

Since the day of leaving is getting closer, I feel like there are a lot of things that I haven't done which really make me nervous. Accommodation, works, things to bring or documents to apply, suddenly feel like time is not enough for me!! Oweeeee, messing up myself again.

Another 1 Month 1 Week & 4 Days to go~
Kaybe & Lina are going to New Zealand~

Chasing our dreams!

This article caught my eyes while I am FB-ing and I would like to share with all of you here.

Bronnie Ware worked as a nurse and all her patients were those who had gone home to die. After so many years she shared her times with them, she concluded "5 regrets of The Dying" which we can learn from it.

5 regrets of The Dying

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me. 

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made. 

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard. 

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends. 

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier. 


As you have seen, I have highlight the first regret, maybe it is more on my feelings now. Once, I wanted to get marry on my 18. But after entering this working society, I hardly believe that I could make myself marry before 30. I am not saying that I won't be getting into family by the age of 30, is that I feel like time is never enough for me to explore, to chase for my dream! I don't want to live the life others expected on me, I need time to honour my dreams one by one and I am happy to said that I am now in the process! 

Yeah! Thanks GOD for giving me the chance in my life to do things that I love so much, diving, travelling and HE always prepare it more than enough for me! Going to New Zealand for working travel is my next BIG milestone of my life and I am ready for it!

Another 1 month, 3 weeks & 3 days!

(Wanna to read more about the 5 regrets, click HERE.)

Why working holiday?

Recently I get to know a very special friend from diving, he was my diving master during my diving course in Krabi.  What make him so special to me? In fact it is the way he travels that fascinates me. Most of the time we used to visit places strongly recommended and plan our route way too pack which we can't even spare a minute for doing
"big business" in toilet! **Joke**

However, Su Huai can describe the way he looks into the place with a different view, more interesting facts and photos and readers of his BLOG are given a feel that he has an exhaustive study on each places he visited.

He don't stay on luxury hotel 

He don't plan pack schedule

Most of the interesting parts of his trip came unexpectedly &

His easy going characteristic gain him many new friends. 

There are many ways of travelling and I prefer to

a. Stay at that particular place for some while

b. Be in touch with the native

c. Understand their culture

d. Live like local, enjoy their lifestyle & 

e. Fall in love with that place 

--- The very main reasonS why I am choosing to work travel at NZ instead of having a few days trip.

5 months 2 weeks & 1 day to my departure to New Zealand and I am getting more and more excited!

Travelling

「 就像我从来不知道我想从旅行当中得到什么一样

出发去寻找所谓的答案的时候

其实连问题都不存在

- July Love 」

I have always been reading people's blog and recently I got attracted a 24 years old beautiful girl who has now become a mommy of a little baby boy. She is one of a backpacker who like to travel around with her husband. It is very blessed to have a companion who can travel around with you and not to mention the sharings and experiences that they walked through hand in hand.

There is one article written by her which I would like to share with all : <阿格拉，穿莎麗遊泰姬瑪哈陵歷險記 @ 寫作的旅行> What is travelling about? She really done a good work in interpret her opinion of travelling.

When I told my mom and other elder uncles or aunties about my plan to Newzealand, most of them would think that I am too stupid to resign on my current job which I would defenitely gain a good prospects and nevertheless they will add-on with: "YOU WILL REGRET ONE DAY IN THE FUTURE". I told them I really hope to explore more when I am young and this is a once in a life time chance that I only will regret if I didn't seize it. They try to influence my decision by stating that I can done it on my retire stage and what that got into my mind is the endless cycle of an usual people like me and my family:-

Study -> Working -> Marry -> Having Baby -> Save Money for Children
-> Looking on their Children repeat on their cycle 

Can I ask them, where is the travelling section? After their children graduate in University? Probably 50-60 of your age and till then do you think you still getting passionate of travelling around? Being that case, what for I don't go for it now? I am just trying to postpone my pre-assume life cycle and work out my plan while I am not bearing any burden.

I am just a simple little girl that want to know more about this big big world.

Flight settled!

"When GOD closes one door,

He opens another"

I never doubt how GOD make his plan on me, cause I know that he prepares the best for me. Air Asia X suspended their flight to Christchurch from 31 May 2012 onwards, It is such a bad news for us (backpackers) as Air Asia X is always our choice for cheaper flight tickets which the lowest can come to RM344 before tax. Can you imagine how much we can save from it? Luckily, we still left a choice of low cost carrier - "Jetstar".

Itinerary of our flight

From time to time, I have been surfing Jetstar website so that I can aware of their on going promotions and I got a very GOOD news yesterday morning from my cousin LINA (my buddy who will be going with me) that Jetstar is having promotion for flight from Kuala Lumpur(KUL) -> Auckland, Newzealand(AUK)!! After some discussions, we decide to buy the flight with shortest transit time at Singapore and share the luggage of 25kg which cost only RM 1.631.80 for both of us!

HERE WE GO a big step nearer to our dream! 

Struggle

The first question of my friends would ask me after they notice I will be going for
working holiday @ Newzealand this coming November is : How about your boyfriend?

Yea, I am a girl with a boyfriend,
yet I am so selfish that I dump my boyfriend alone in KL and I go enjoy myself in Newzealand.
I think it should be the impression of them when they are asking me this question.

Actually I don't feel anything wrong at first as he is a guy that can take care of himself very well,
his life can be more easy without taking care of me and our relationship is like so stable
making me have the illusion that even if I am going to NZ for the whole year
he still have the ability to enjoy his life without me.

Not until the day I came back from Krabi and we talked about the issue.
He without any intention just beg me whether I can cancel my plan.
At that very moment, I am mad of him, he knows me well and when everything is settled
now he only ask me to stay? But why, why he didn't ask me earlier?
I told him I paid for the visa and I don't want to waste the money.

Obviously it is just an EXCUSE of a heartless girl.

Many times I told people, in a relationship we should be responsible for each other,
think for each other, but when it comes to me, I just want to keep the whole interest to myself.
I enjoy being his girlfriend, enjoy his pamper, enjoy his companion,
but I chose to leave him chasing my little dream now.

But it's too late for me to change my mind, I have wonder for this trip for so long and
 I don't want anything to be regret in my life.
I like to explore more, this could be the great chance that I certainly don't wanna miss up.
I am sorry to him.

Forgive my stubborn, forgive my naive.

Process of applying

After apply online for the working holiday visa

Almost twice a day I log in into the NewZealand immigration web
to check for my application status

Day by day

People around start to congratulate each other but my status still pending

There are statements explaining why I apply 5am in the morning but still pending : 

1) I fill up my departure date on Nov'2012
(The authority incharge choose the earlier departure date to approve first)

2) All the application form received are piled up & we are at the very bottom

I am so anxious

Worry that when I finally decide to step out but I am not approved

Then all thing will be back to the beginning

After a very LONG week waiting

Lastly I saw a big "APPROVED"

Electronic Notification : APPROVED

My Working Visa

Wao! I feel like jumping and cheering on my bed

o! Sorry, I was there working in my office

My expression cannot be too obvious and exaggerate

as I am not planning to let me colleagues to know first :P

All the excitements and hurrays!!!
I am IN!
Again!!!
NewZealand, I AM COMING!!!

Books about WH @ NewZealand

Before doing some preparation for my WH @ Newzealand
I bought 2 books which are recommended by people

The first one I read ,

《囧样纽西兰》

Actually I don't really enjoy reading this book
Most of the words are all about the gal's muttering
yea, I mean the writer of this book
The descriptions are repeating again and again which is quite boring for me
A long-winded type of book
But sure there are some merits in it
Many tips that we should take note are given inside
which I think is quite useful

On the oontrary, this book is more to my taste,

《纽西兰打工旅行273天》

The descriptions are clear and straight to the point
All the articles are smoothly written & set off by attractive photos
Overall is a nice book that you can spend your afternoon with
But I found out that there is so little about his working life
more to "travel experience" rather than "working holiday experience"

There are places in NewZeanland which both books introduce
But both of them have the different side of views on each place they have been
More importantly
They are never regret on their decisions to be here

How is wish I am now 

standing in the middle of somewhere 

@ NewZealand

Breathing the very fresh air

Experience the environment sumptuously

**Day Dreaming** again....

Lastly!

I've made up my mind

to have my dream come true

(**Working Holiday in New Zealand**)

seems so unreachable for me before

After all the encouragements from Lina

I know I should give myself a big step out

to look at the world

to explore more

And so.....

Wake up 5am in the morning of 4th Jan 2012

I apply for the visa

I know there are many things that  I need to give up

many things that I need to sacrifice

maybe my "almost" 4 years relationship

will end up with all the <Long distance> problems

Will be all over again for my career in accounting

But

There is one thing that I am certain

is that

IF I am not going

I will be regretting so so much

NEWZEALAND!

I AM COMING!